This has been the most fascinating couple of days and I feel I have learnt so much. A recent, recurring and continuing prayer and meditation of mine is that I grow closer to source and learn, really learn, to help others to heal. I have a deep desire to gain a much better understanding of what is the most effective and what I can do to help others and myself. So I had a wry chuckle to myself when I was driving home in the car yesterday listening to Dr Wayne Dyer on YouTube when he said ‘When you are ready the teacher will appear’. Well thank you Wayne Dyer because you are teaching me a whole lot at the moment!
I keep finding that the Tao keeps popping up in my life right now so I decided that, as I know nothing about the Tao Te Ching and that the little I have read strikes a great many chords with me, I would try to find out more. What better place to start than with Wayne Dyer’s book on the Tao ‘Change your thoughts, change your life’, particularly as I find his work truly inspirational (in every sense).
In the book he gives his interpretation of this ancient book of spiritual wisdom, and encourages you to read a chapter and then put it into practice, or to ‘Do the Dao now’ as he puts it. In the first chapter Wayne suggested that the next time you feel irritation about something that you don’t do anything to remove that irritation, but that you step aside from yourself and put yourself in a place where you can observe that thought, notice how it feels, track it through your body and sense where it goes. The timing was perfect, my husband was asleep in bed next to me and he turned over and threw his arm over me. Bear in mind that I’m a menopausal woman in her mid-forties; believe me at night there is nothing more irritating than such an action, which is guaranteed to provoke a hot flush! So I lay there and took notice of my irritation and I was completely shocked to realise that I could feel it physically (as I had physically felt love in the Reiki session with my friend) and, as an observer, I could sense it snake its way through my body. I caved in with a big ‘humph’ before I could follow it to its natural conclusion and had to throw the offending arm off my body.
This morning I was woken by a dream that I don’t remember (if indeed there was one), but my immediate feeling was one of fear. ‘Step back from yourself and track the feeling’ I ‘thought’ (because again, I don’t think it was my own thought). I was astounded to physically feel that fear snake its way from my thoughts and down into the pit of my stomach. Wow. What would it feel like if I were really angry? What an incredibly profound way to discover that your emotions really do have a physical effect on your body. No wonder that Mikao Usui’s Reiki prayer starts:
‘Just for today I won’t be angry’
‘Just for today I won’t worry’
As if to emphasise the point, my own healing has been continuing and I seem to be shedding layer after layer of old emotion and negativity. The day before yesterday I was walking in the woods and found myself absorbed by something that had deeply affected me when I was in my early twenties, a very uncomfortable memory which I have pushed to one side and effectively buried in my thoughts for very many years. I found myself thinking it over and over whilst I was walking, and realised I was walking with tears streaming down my face. The walk gave me the time to acknowledge my feelings and to start to make peace with myself. When I woke yesterday morning I had a huge and very painful knot in my shoulder and chest, like a trapped nerve, but mentally I felt completely energised. I believe it was the toxic emotion that I had released the day before making its exit.
Now that I am looking the lessons seem to come continuously. I was over the moon to wake up yesterday to an email from my friend thanking me for helping both her dog and her horse. I shot over to her house for a look and the dog’s cut was definitely on the mend and the filling in her horse’s leg had virtually disappeared. Before I left I felt the need to Google hind-gut infections in horses (of which I know nothing), and sure enough the search threw up plenty of texts associating hind gut infections with filled legs. I had wondered whether the treatment on her dog would work, as I hadn’t ‘felt’ very much when I gave the treatment. Another big lesson for me, that I just need to step out of the way and let the source handle everything; what I feel has nothing to do with whether a healing works or not. Duly noted. I find the thoughts that popped into my head ‘You are not the healer, you are merely the vessel through which the healing passes’ particularly intriguing. Vessel is certainly not a word that would ordinarily form part of my vocabulary, it’s as if I’m receiving guidance from an ancient wisdom. In fact, guidance and wisdom from a variety of sources, which seems to adapt itself perfectly to whatever quandary or situation I happen to find myself in.
It's so easy to fall into the ego-trap of thinking that we have anything at all to do with how the energy helps others; I keep reminding myself that Spirit and the client's Higher Self know exactly what is going on, and I'm just the conduit. :)
ReplyDeleteI just picked up another book about Taoism the other day. *L*
It's so easy to step outside one's emotions when things are calm, but boy, add in a high-energy, tumultuous exchange and all the 'take nothing personally', 'it's not about you', don't feed the anger', etc, goes right out the window.