Grounded

I feel much calmer and more grounded today. Yesterday I couldn’t concentrate on anything and the energy was almost overwhelming, so I walked in the rain and the wind with my dog. I popped into the ambulance station and saw one of the ladies who had driven me to Rennes every day for my chemotherapy and asked her to bear my Reiki in mind for anyone she felt I might be able to help – she was over the moon to see me in good health. Then I spent an hour or so just standing quietly in the field amongst my horses and when I came back to the house I sang and danced around my kitchen to the music of my youth. Some of the songs resonated with feelings I’d had during a very difficult period when I was younger, and I was able to just let those feelings go and move on.

I had asked a friend who does Reiki whether she was feeling the same amount of energy as I was. I wanted to know if it was the energy of the times that I was feeling, or if it was just something I needed to work through.  Her wise response was ‘Energy is always there, it’s your ability to feel and channel it that changes’.

This morning I was woken by those beautiful swirling indigo colours again, almost as if they were saying ‘You didn’t quite get it, did you? You’re only doing part of it’, so inspired by Wayne Dyer quoting Rumi ‘Don’t go back to sleep’ I staggered out of bed and wrote down the plethora of stuff that intuitively came into my mind.  I found the whole process very cathartic; my hands pulsed while I was typing in the same way they do when I do Reiki and at one point I saw an indigo cloud sweep briefly across my computer keyboard.