In the flow

I haven’t posted this on this blog recently, almost certainly because I’ve been in a period of transition.  Having made the decision that I want to grab everything that this new way of seeing and living life has offered me, I have still had mountains of ‘old stuff’ that can’t be let go of until the new is properly bedded in.  As much as I’d like to ditch the day job immediately, start a new career in energy healing and write a book, I still have a family to feed.  In fact, when I checked this out with my guides (can you believe that I’ve even written that – this time last year I’d’ve got myself committed for even thinking such a thing) it was very clear that I had to continue doing what I was doing for the time being.

The gradual process of stepping away from what doesn’t make my heart sing has started, and I’m spending more time doing what I love.  I’m riding more, I’m blessed to be able to spend more time in the garden (the bad back that has dogged me for years is but a distant memory these days).  I’m still selling equestrian properties but now I’m being more fussy about what I put on my books, turning down anything that I don’t love or that has tricky owners as part of the package. I’m still taking translation work but have scaled it right down and am turning away everything except projects that  ‘grab me’.  As a result I’ve just started translating a magazine for the European pony Championships that is fascinating for a life-long sport pony lover and doesn’t feel like work at all.

In the meantime, my new ‘business’ is gradually starting to grow through word of mouth.  Each time I take my daughters to a show jumping competition there seem to be a steady stream of people asking me to take a look at a lame horse or help a horse that has colic or is not eating. I seem to have established a none-too-glamourous clinic in our lorry for a queue of battered riders with various ailments (we are a crocked-up lot). When I go to visit a property I often end up staying behind to treat a sick or injured horse that I’ve come across.  I’ve lost track of how many times I’ve driven home doing distant Reiki for a motley collection of horses, other animals and people, only to be phoned a few days later by the originally sceptical owner asking if I’d pop back and do a session for them or another family member.  Energy healing rapidly sorted the long-term back pain of my next-door neighbour who subsequently sent her husband with an eye problem and her hairdresser who was in agony and on morphine with a shoulder injury.  They were all amazed by the results and have in turn referred other clients to me.  It will take a while, but I have no doubt that if it is part of the universe’s plan for me then it will happen.

I have spent every spare waking hour reading, watching videos, listening to seminars or on forums, making new connections, learning wherever I can, seeing what I can pick up, not only from Reiki but from other healing modalities and ‘natural’ healers.  I did an initial Pranic healing course to try to make sense of the colours that I see so regularly during my sessions and in my quiet time.  I don’t think we need to understand in order to help heal; in fact, it seems to be key to be able to step out of the way.  Nevertheless, a basic knowledge of the chakras and their related colours provides some satisfaction for my (moderately) logical human brain, which is constantly seeking to understand.  I’ve started to be able to see auras (although heaven forbid someone isn’t sat still against a light background), and to see the energy in the air once it was pointed out to me.  How on earth have I missed it for the past forty-five years? When I tried to explain to my 11-year-old daughter how to see it, she looked at me like I was insane and replied ‘Oh that? Doesn’t everyone see that? I’m looking at the world with new eyes. I notice the aura of trees and plants; fields of corn, swathes of grass and the sky seem to take on new colours.  I see fleeting clouds of light and colour streaming in through the window, or bouncing off a wall.  Even birdsong and bees seem to buzz louder.

I've also learned how to use a pendulum. What fun! I've been like a child, seeking answers to no end of questions, my guides must give a huge sigh of relief when I shut my eyes at the end of the day.  I know I already have all the answers I need and don't need to rely on outside tools, but boy does it help speed things up sometimes. 

Things are fundamentally shifting in my life.  Before, I was very reserved about mentioning energy work and my newfound spirituality. Now, everyone who knows me knows this is what I ‘do’, or at least, what I facilitate. I feel incredibly driven to write a book.  I’ve always known I have a book in me; I had no idea that it would be this one! I thought I would have to write at 4am so as to avoid any upheaval in the family, instead my husband has offered to take on my work in real estate to enable me to settle down and write.  This would have been inconceivable only a few months ago. I’d read it a thousand times, but it’s true what they say.  Now I’ve jumped into the flow things seems to be falling into place with little or no effort.