Living in awe

In my last post I shared about how I’ve finally surrendered, let go and stepped into the flow.  Over the past few weeks there have been some particularly memorable sessions that have profoundly deepened my belief and knowing.  Each time I work with energy I am in wonder; these particular sessions or incidents completely blew me away and have left me in awe.  The three am ‘visits’ I had for months on end seem to be far less frequent but conversely I’m witnessing magic and miracles in my waking hours on a regular basis.

The first was a healing session I did with my husband.  He had fallen 7 metres off a roof several years earlier and spent six months in a wheelchair, exploding his heel very badly and has suffered with the obvious long-term effects.  A Reiki session would ease the pain for a day or two, but then the dull ache would start and in no time he’d be limping again.  I made a wonderful contact via Facebook who runs a wonderful page called Lightworkers for Change http://www.facebook.com/lightworkersforchange (check it out!) who had found I did equine Reiki. She had spent some time with an aboriginal bushman and had picked up some fantastic energy-healing techniques for horses, which she kindly took the time to share with me.  I incorporated them into my work with horses with success so thought I would try with my husband.  I started a normal Reiki session, but gradually let myself drift into a light trance state (very easy, as I was mesmerised by the incredible flow of colours) and intended that my husband’s foot be restored to its natural state, that he feel no pain but that whatever deep healing needed to take place be facilitated through me.  Immediately he fell into a deep slumber and I felt the energy coursing through my hands.  For around ¾ of an hour he didn’t stir but his whole foot and leg moved back and forth and I could see the joints and bones moving.  It was as if I was watching the bones that were out of kilter being moved back into alignment, it was quite astonishing. I had my hands in one place and I could see things shifting elsewhere in his body. When the session drew to an end he awoke.  Not only had the pain gone but I couldn’t believe it when he said he hadn’t noticed a thing although he felt very tired! I got the impression it was a similar sort of fatigue to that which you get when you come out of an operating theatre.

A similar incident happened only last week, although I was very ‘present’ and there was no hint of being in a trance state.  A client came to see me with excruciating shoulder pain.  The pain was so bad that morphine and anti-inflammatories didn’t touch it and she had literally been sick with the agony.  I had done a couple of quick sessions with her earlier in the week, but felt that she needed a full session.  Almost instantly she fell into a deep slumber and as soon as I placed my hands on her head my arms and hands turned a rose pink and the energy flowed strongly.  I have never witnessed such a physical session.  My hands were quiet and still on her head, I did not intend anything in particular, just got out of the way, yet her hands constantly opened and closed, her arms, shoulder, neck and legs twitched and moved for around ¾ of an hour.  Not just a little shudder like you get when someone has touched a nerve, it was real movement as if someone had hold of a limb and was tugging it to straighten the kinks out.  I was wondering what on earth she would say at the end of the session and yet when she awoke she hadn’t noticed a thing.  Interestingly, when I did some research on the rose pink (with some tinges of violet) that I had clearly seen throughout the session I read that it is linked with the heart chakra, compassion for humanity, and amongst the ailments listed were upper back problems, hands & circulation – the three of which had been troubling her for years.  Within less than an hour of returning to the house she left a message on my answer phone saying that the pain had completely disappeared.

We have a jumping pony who has had problems with his pelvis and stifle since he was young, and I had noticed he had started favouring one leg again.  I used the technique I had been told about and took hold of his withers in both hands (the solar plexus chakra).  Almost immediately he contorted his body and stretched it on his own in the same way that the osteopath had done when she had treated him several months earlier.  Believe me, this was not a position that a horse would put himself into naturally, nor without a lot of encouragement & reassurance.  Result? One sound pony.

Although I use self-Reiki on a regular basis the next mind-blowing moment occurred whilst I received a treatment from my Reiki master.  When I was on my Pranic healing course we had all taken it in turns to sit on one side of the room whilst the other students studied our etheric, emotional and physical auras.  When all but one of the group noticed a dark, dingy sludge in my emotional aura close to where I had had my breast cancer tumour and lymph nodes removed I was very quick to book myself in for a session to ‘hoover it up’. The consultation started with a question and answer session.  Laura was very keen to establish what incidents I had experienced immediately prior to the cancer in my left breast that she felt was strongly linked to being a mother or caring for someone.  Had something happened to one of the children? Had I been worried about one of them? Something that I hadn’t been able to talk or share about, a responsibility that fell on me? Nothing jumped out at me.  As soon as the session started I found myself staring at the ceiling because there was just the most spectacular display of colours.  It was as if I had my very own version of the Northern Lights. I can’t describe how beautiful it was.  All of a sudden I was gripped with a fear in the pit of my stomach and I instantly had a deep, innate knowing that my cancer had been set in motion when my husband fell off the roof.  I can’t tell you how, but I just knew. It was exactly the panic I’d felt when I received the phone call saying the ambulance was on it’s way, the fear of how we would cope if he died or was unable to walk again. And then, just like that, it evaporated.  Laura told me after the session that the murky sludge just disappeared.  It made perfect sense.  It wasn’t my children I’d been mothering, but my husband who had been unable to do so much as cut his food up on his own for several months; I’d been a mother to him for a time.  And of course, I was still working full time, running the house, looking after the kids.  I was physically and emotionally drained but was unable to grumble about it as he was the one in need of support.  I noticed the tumour and my cancer was diagnosed just a couple of months later. I had never linked the two incidents, just thought we’d had a run of bad luck.

The day before yesterday I did a session with a young man in his twenties who had suddenly become paralysed down one side of his face and had gone deaf in one ear and lost all sense of taste.  He had been to see the doctor who was unable to find the cause. Throughout the session I felt the energy very strongly.  Conversely he felt nothing at all. Not a thing. His girlfriend, who was sat with him throughout, asked to see what it felt like, and she immediately felt the heat generated by the energy, even though my hands were cool.  He didn’t feel a single sensation, and looked at me quite disbelievingly at the end.  During this session I saw lots of indigo pouring through my hands, which I knew probably linked to the third eye chakra.  I felt a stabbing pain deep inside my ear and in my shoulder.  I would never dream of attempting or sharing a diagnosis but to settle my own curiosity I later checked out the physical dysfunctions linked to this chakra.  They were listed as ‘brain tumours, strokes, blindness, deafness, seizures, learning disabilities, spinal dysfunctions and depression’.  I have since learned that his grand mother died at a young age following a stroke.

Feeling a small amount of pain in a particular place has become a pretty regular occurrence for me – it’s almost as if it’s a way of guiding me to put my hands in a certain place from which the troubles stem.

I’ve also been regularly and inadvertently picking up on other peoples thoughts and feelings.  I went to a charity barbeque at the weekend which was attended,  amongst other people, by a group of men from a shelter for the homeless. I didn’t have a drink because I was driving.  This would not ordinarily present me with any problem, but all evening I felt on edge and kept glancing at other people’s glasses.  It felt incredibly uncomfortable and was very disconcerting.  It really took the edge off my evening.  In the early hours of the morning I awoke and suddenly ‘knew’ that they weren’t my feelings, I’d somehow picked them up from someone at the barbeque.  I even had a good idea as to who it had been, although there had been nothing overtly obvious to make me think that.  The next day I went back to meet the group and I mentioned it in passing.  Immediately one of the guys said ‘That was me. That is exactly how I was feeling all night’. He had only been in the shelter for a week or so, and he was in his first few days sober.  Later, the event organiser asked us to spend a few moments quietly in a group meditation.  With my eyes closed, I immediately saw the darkness fill with a beautiful green, the colour of healing and of the heart chakra.  There are no words to describe the atmosphere. I just know we all tangibly felt a deep sense of love, caring, compassion and connection, and that there was something incredibly special present bonding together a collection of individuals.

Awe, I live in awe and wonder. I am so grateful that this work has found me.