Struggling with money?

Yesterday a Twitter and Facebook friend and fellow lightworker, who I love to follow and who is clearly struggling financially at the moment posted:

http://pipmiller.wordpress.com/2012/04/09/the-law-of-attraction-and-recognition/

I duly posted back with a variety of techniques for manifesting.  ‘Have you read the 11 Forgotten Laws by Bob Proctor or Deepak Chopra’s Seven Spiritual Laws of Success?’, ‘Give freely what you want to receive’, ‘Visualise what you want to achieve with the money rather than the money itself’, ‘Think about what you are going to do with the money that will help others’, ‘Ask the right questions such as ‘What is right about this that I’m not getting?’, ‘This is not working for me, what needs to change?’, ‘What do I need to do today to change my business/life?’.’  All of which are great techniques…

…but it got me to thinking.

I have hung out on an incredible number of calls and teleconferences recently, and I’m pretty sure that the majority of people on the calls are other like-minded and awakened folk, or healers, mediums, spiritualists in their various guises.  The one thing that has really, really stood out for me is how many of us are in dire financial straits at the moment.  Not just a bit broke, but that gut-churningly, can’t sleep at night, how will I feed the kids and keep a roof over our heads, making ourselves quite literally physically sick with worry, living in total terror type of broke.  It seems that on every call there is a deluge of people asking for advice about how to manifest, and as if to widen the gap, a host or speaker who is doing amazingly well at it.

As a matter of fact, I’ve stunned myself in recent weeks with what I’ve managed to manifest.  An unexpected offer on a house from a client who I’d written off, a client who wanted to pay me for my time and petrol to take them viewing, neighbours turning up with fresh vegetables, buyers making purchases on a website that has not yet gone live.  But what I’ve come to realise is that no matter how much I manifest a corresponding amount seems to ‘slip’ out of my grasp a day or two later.  The big house sale was immediately followed by an obscene tax bill, which left my husband with shoulders sagging and a look of sheer desperation etched across his face again.

Strangely enough, I have gone beyond caring.  I have become remarkably apt at living in that place inside of me where there is no fear or worry, and where I am able to look around me in awe and wonder at all the amazing things that surround me and be glad that I am loved and am of service.  I know that the universe has my back.  When I do get money I give gladly to help others out of a spot, and I have felt compelled to get rid of the ‘Tariffs’ section of my website, replacing it with a ‘Donate’ button which enables people to give what they can afford and if they want to.  I am doing around 15-20 healings a day at the moment, the vast amount of which I do free of charge.  I am making a difference to their lives and know I receive back in so many other ways and I am glad.  But it doesn’t put food on the table, and I think I now know why.

I hesitated before writing this, because I questioned whether it would increase my negative vibrations and put me ‘out of alignment with abundance’, yet another example of ‘I can’t’ which will ultimately drag our family to rock bottom.  Believe me, I’ve thought positively for months on end, I couldn’t begin to count how many affirmations and releasing statements I’ve made and have done everything humanly possible to get rid of ‘karmic debt’.  And yet I find myself wishing with all my heart that someone would come up with a better solution to money; that there would be no taxes (much of which seem to be used to fund greed and war), that half the world wouldn’t be living in poverty to the point of starvation, that we wouldn’t have to pay to educate our children, for health services, our old folk unable to heat their homes and feed themselves. 

And that, my friends, is my point. No matter how much we manifest, I have come to the conclusion that, for the time being at least, it will all go straight back out again because it is meant to be that way.  Because if enough of us are yearning, and I mean truly, powerfully, yearning, for another way, then the power of collective consciousness will somehow make sure that way is found.