Integration

Having woken up at least fifteen times in the night to go for a wee (thankfully shedding some of the excess baggage I seem to have put on around my middle recently, despite eating less and more healthily) I got up yesterday with a temperature and aching all over.  Unable to do much more than shift from bed, to the bath, to the sofa then back to bed, I took a brief glance at my horoscope which advised me:

‘It’s very necessary that you are listening to your heart dear Aries and also making sure that you are looking after your body.  This means you’ll need to have more space in your life to make sure you have time for you.  I can’t stress to you how important it’s going to be to have alone time.  There are some very profound messages coming your way at the moment and you don’t want to miss any of them’.

Well, I didn’t need any more encouragement to take it easy.  Instead, I used the time to make a big dent in Dr Eric Pearl’s book ‘The Reconnection’.  I was astonished at just how many similarities there were in our respective journeys, although my palms have never bled, his patients seem to stay awake through their healings and mine seem to fall asleep, and I frequently see clouds of colours whereas this doesn't seem to feature in his writing.

The other advice was to ‘focus your energy on you’. Just as well really, because when I tried to respond to requests for distant healing, I could hardly feel any energy in my hands.  Normally I just have to shift my attention to them and the energy is instantly there, noticeably strong.  I could hardly muster a tingle.

Whilst lying quietly I noticed shafts of white light and what I could only describe as ‘frequencies’, going both up and down the shaft of light, although principally upwards away from me.  A quick Google on my phone and I see that I am not alone, although it doesn’t seem to be widespread: http://spiritualnetworks - seeing soundwaves

I also listened to this channelling of Kyron by Lee Carroll Kyron chanelling Lee Carroll and a plaiedien channelling via Lia Shapiro (from Barbara Marciniak’s book Bringers of the Dawn way back in 1992 but just as relevant today) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U9HtZFb_VtM which made perfect sense of much that I’ve been thinking and feeling for a long time.  I have always felt that someone or something was 'working on me' during my night visits, and a deep inner knowing that this is not the first time I've worked with these energies. I loved to read too how Kyron is linked with the Archangel Michael, to whom I also feel a strong allegiance. 

I also felt the need to learn more about energy portals in the earth - this is something I will explore further.

This morning the temperature has dissipated but I have excruciating pain in my lower back.  But at least now I believe that it is with good cause.  I find it hard to believe how much my thought processes have changed in the past 12 months and that I'm giving any credibility to information like this.  But give it credibility I most certainly do. 

Part of a global 'immune system'?

Over recent weeks my ‘Ascension symptoms’ have continued unabated so I was intrigued to come across this article: spiritual awakening quiz and to find that I’ve been regularly experiencing around 45 of the 51 spiritual awakening symptoms.  I’ve grown to welcome and love them; I find the whole experience incredibly exhilarating and exiting.

Yesterday a friend passed me a channelling about the Earth Star chakra that I found particularly interesting: the2012scenario.com/melchizedek.  Ever since I did my first Reiki initiation I have had tingling in my feet and in recent weeks they have vibrated powerfully on a pretty permanent basis – in fact, if my feet aren’t tingling these days I start to wonder what’s wrong! The channelling made quite a lot of sense to me, as you’ll have gathered from my postings on this blog that I sense very strongly that we are somehow linked to an energy network that runs through the earth. The idea that we should become more aware of the flow of energy beneath our feet seems perfect to me at this moment in time.

I dropped off to sleep last night listening to Panache Desai (not that he was dull in any sense you must understand, I plan to listen to the rest later today!).  He said that we were never designed or intended to hold on to our emotions but that they should flow, like all other forms of energy.  I awoke in the wee small hours to a thought to which my initial reaction was fear.  Instead of laying there mithering about it, as I would have done only a few months earlier, I acknowledged the emotion, and then simply observed it.  I felt it, I experienced the sensations it created in me and then I focused on my Earth Star chakra and the most incredible thing happened. The fear immediately vanished, out through my feet.  In its place I felt the most wonderful feeling of love and comfort rising upwards through my body.  I can’t tell you how excited I feel by this new (to me?) technique! I had the feeling that I had just formed part of an emotional anti-viral/immune system for consciousness and the planet.  Almost as if I was monitoring and sharing information about a particular emotional response in order that it could be effectively ‘dealt with’. I shall try it again next time I feel a strong emotion and let you know how I get on.

Another development I have experienced on four occasions now, is seeing strong geometric shapes whilst healing or meditating. I use the term meditating loosely because these days I feel connected pretty much permanently and so meditation has recently consisted more of a bit of quiet time for the inner me.  These have been particularly clear and like nothing I have ever experienced before.  As usual, this has been the prompt for me to explore further. It’s all well and good me receiving these symbols but what the heck are they supposed to mean? Are they even supposed to mean anything, or am I just getting the latest download? They are very similar to the sacred geometry shapes that are regularly found in crop circles.  After a fair bit of research I found that the latest of these was not dissimilar in form to the symbol for the heart chakra, although I’m fairly convinced that there was an Egyptian eye of Horus symbol in the middle instead. 

What wonderful synchronicity then to go to our monthly Reiki share and find we were doing a session on the heart meridian using the various acupuncture points.  When it was my turn to give the treatment, I saw clouds of green (the colour linked to the heart chakra) whilst my guinea pig reported a blissful sensation and seeing bright white light.  When it was my turn to receive, I was very surprised at the strength of the energy that one finger pushing lightly on my arm could generate.  My right arm felt as if it was very constricted and engorged, like energy was being pushed through my arm (like squeezing a tube of toothpaste, or having a blood pressure cuff all the way up my arm).  I felt the energy powerfully from the very tips of my fingers, right the way up my neck to the top of my head.  That night I was so wired with energy I couldn’t sleep at all.  The following morning I had a few emotional moments when an incident of loss that had caused me much grief in my childhood (a horse that I’d looked after for several years at the local riding school was sold without me having had the chance to say goodbye), and which I haven’t thought consciously about for years, came to the forefront of my mind.  And then it simply left, leaving me feeling light and fantastic as it went; almost as if yet another block in my subconscious that had been removed.  This is just one example; all around me old issues seem to be rising to the surface in order to leave.