A week of learning

What a week this has been. Comparatively (and perhaps a little frustratingly if I’m being honest) quiet on the Reiki front. Instead it has been a time for discovery and intensive learning – every spare moment has been spent reading or listening to MP3 downloads about spirituality, collective consciousness and the metaphysical.  As I’m writing this there is yet another halo of light around the moon that is shining through my window.  Having listened to Shifra Hendrie’s Authentic Kabbalah series earlier in the week http://www.kabbalahoftransformation.com/authentic.html and gained a deeper understanding about the relationship between sun and moon I’m looking at it with new eyes.

The series was an easy stepping-stone to some of the most fascinating speakers I have listened to: http://www.quantumhealingandsoul.com/ (you have to register, but you don’t get spammed to death afterwards).  More of the inspiring Jennifer Hough, who leaves me buzzing each time I hear her speak. I loved Rikka Zimmerman’s take on the collective mind and was particularly intrigued by the concept that, in much the same way as I have become aware of other people’s energies, all those thoughts that keep popping into my heads might not necessarily be my own. Alex Lloyd’s Healing Codes has made it onto my ‘must buy’ list; what he had to say about cellular memory made so much sense and the results are compelling and scientifically supported. Lynne McTaggart’s Intention Experiment and the way she sees consciousness and community rang so many bells.  It was brilliant to have confirmation that collective intention is being proven to have an effect on things such as the growth of plants and conflict resolution. I knew it! After listening to her for just an hour and a half I came away thinking ‘Yes! This is what it’s all about!’ and consequently have loads of new projects on the cards.

I also did Rav Daniel Kohn’s meditation in the middle of the night, whilst I was on the cusp of sleep.  At the start I felt a little uncomfortable about the fact that it seemed a bit religious, but I decided to remain objective and leave my mind open.  The meditation generated an incredible amount of energy that seemed undiminished by the fact that I was listening to a replay.  What was particularly intriguing is that at a key point in the meditation my 11-year-old daughter who happened to be sleeping in bed next to me that night started gabbling away in her sleep, speaking very clearly but in a language that was neither English nor French, a language that I did not recognise.

Lots of learning about the effects of the recent solar flares and ‘Ascension Symptoms’, or Ascension Flu as many are referring to it (and I can see why)  http://laurabruno.wordpress.com/2012/02/01/ascension-symptoms-and-solar-flares/, both in theory and first hand.  I’ve felt absolutely exhausted for the past few days, so much so that I gave up and spent much of Saturday in bed.  Piercing headaches (which I’m not usually prone to), check, sinus pains (but no cold), check, tingling and pulling in my jaw, check, tender scalp, check, pain around crown and brow chakra, check, constant ringing in the ears, check, sense of tipping forward, check, fluid retention (despite eating well, drinking no alcohol whatsoever and getting plenty of exercise), check, hot flashes (but I am mid-menopause…), check, feeling that ‘Now’ is incredibly important, check, knowing rather than linear thinking, check, incredible happiness (and optimism for the future, I’d say), check. Add to that list a vibrating tongue and bottom lip, inability to concentrate, and a ball of tingling energy behind my heart on the left side of my back.

Learning too about the five new (or new to me?) chakras http://aquariusflowerremedies.com/pdf/extendedchakras.pdf. 

So much learning to do, and at the same time it feels like time has speeded up and there’s never enough time to fit everything in.  I can’t believe where the months are going to, they seem to be flying by and not just because I’m not getting any younger, is it something to do with the higher vibrations?

Letting go

I didn’t think there were any more layers to peel but I have just woken from the most terrifying dream in which I received the news that my cancer had come back and was bigger than before.  It was incredibly vivid and I felt every emotion as I did when I received the initial diagnosis; fear, anger or more precisely a furious rage, bewilderment, incredulity, sheer terror at the thought of not being around to see my girls grow up.  It was preceded by a feeling of complete exhaustion, so much so that I had to take myself back to bed yesterday afternoon, although there was absolutely nothing ‘wrong’ with me. I had been on the cusp of sleep for most of the night, being aware of the energies pulsing through my body, and at times having a (completely painless) sensation almost as if someone was ‘digging’ in my leg. When my alarm went off this morning I was repeating over and over in my head the mantra ‘I am in perfect health, I am in perfect health, I am in perfect health’. This morning I have a blinding headache and feel absolutely shattered, the kind of tiredness that you would recognise if you have experienced acute or long-term illness, grief or our good old friend chemotherapy.

I honestly thought that I was ok with the fact that I’d had cancer and had moved on, but clearly the terror has remained on a very deep-seated level.  I felt sick to my stomach when I awoke.  A lot has been written recently about the energy of the moment being about letting go and releasing old negativities, so I can recognise this for what it is.

Yesterday I had been reading about being aware of your inner guidance (check out the wonderful #SoulCall on Twitter), and before I nodded back off to sleep in the night I had prayed that the guidance I was being given would be made a bit more obvious so that I could find the right path. Well, that was about as obvious as it gets. This morning my head is screaming over and over ‘Change your life!!!’ and it suddenly seems blindingly obvious that I have somehow fallen back into the old routine of working all hours at a job that I’m no longer passionate about, just to make ends meet. I’ve slipped back into precisely the old, joyless patterns that I had sworn had made me ill in the first place. Ok, ok, I hear you loud and clear, and believe me, I’m ready for a change. However, that eternal problem - needing to feed the family - remains so my inevitable next question is ‘Now what?’

Gratitude

Firstly, let me make it clear that I don’t work with Reiki with the intention of seeking recognition.  In fact, in recent weeks I have often worked anonymously as part of a distant healing group. However, I have recently given quite a few treatments at a distance for which I have received no feedback from the recipients.  Frequently I have heard via a third party that the treatments have been effective, but even if, on the face of it, a treatment hasn’t worked it would be helpful to know so that I can learn and improve.

So what joy to open my email and Facebook messages and find several messages from people I have never physically met, thanking me for the role I have played in their healing, or that of their pet, full of gratitude that I have given my time. What power was held in just a few lines.  I felt amazing all day, like I had helped to make a difference.  What a wonderful reminder to me that I, in turn, should say a huge ‘thank you’ to Source and my guides at the end of each treatment.  And that I should put Mikao Usui’s advice into practice at every opportunity throughout my life :

‘Just for today I will give thanks for my many blessings’.

Poignant messages

I just thought I’d share a couple of random events that I felt were significant given all the recent changes in my life

When I went to my first yoga class we had to pick a card with a crystal on it.  I picked ‘amethyst’ which the accompanying book told me was for ‘Divine connection’.  I have later read it that amethyst encourages readiness for action, clears negative energy, enhances spiritual awareness, psychic abilities and meditation as well as helping to bring inner peace and healing of body, mind and soul and positive transformation.  What could have been more appropriate?

Then a couple of days ago, a friend selected a tarot card for a group who I’ve been very drawn to recently.  It was the magician and the words on the card read:

You have the power to manifest your desires.

Charisma and personal energy radiate from you.

It is your gift to be able to enter sacred space and bring spiritual energy into the world of matter.

When you focus your will, passion and joy creative energy flows through you.

It is not enough to have focus and intention.

You know these must be followed by action.

Your creativity energises you and blesses those around you.

Align yourself with the heartbeat of the earth and bring forth healing for the planet and all her creatures.

Make things happen.

A halo around the moon

I had planned to blog this morning about gratitude (and will still do) but have found myself sidetracked by an amazing, amazing sight in the sky over our part of Brittany last night. The moon was in the dead centre of a perfect circle of luminous cloud, as if it had a halo.  Looking up, it was as if we were in the eye of a tornado, without having had a storm.

Although the rest of the family could see the moon halo effect, I was also able to see a strong royal blue circle around the moon itself.                                       

It was so mesmerising I sat for ages in the garden with a blanket over me just gazing up at the night sky in awe of the beauty and absolute perfection of the universe.  At one point something which I assumed to be a plane went past leaving a straight line trail through the sky which went straight through the centre of the moon and the circle.  I have since seen on the news this morning that the biggest meteor in 30 years was seen across Scotland at around 21.40 GMT, which would be 2240 here in France which was around the time that I saw the ‘plane’.  I’m now convinced that it was the trail of the meteor I witnessed.  I failed miserably to capture it on my phone, but I was nevertheless intrigued by the circles of light in the photo when I downloaded the picture I took, similar in form to all the flowers of life that seem to have kept popping up everywhere I've looked over the past few days.

It was very similar to the luminous cloud effect I had seen a few weeks earlier over the Mont Saint Michel just from a different angle.  There are scientific explanations to be found for it on the Internet (see http://www.cidehom.com/ in French and What makes a halo around the moon? in English. I’m not posting a link to this video Recent UFO sightings worldwide for the over-dramatic, Americanised look at strange objects in the sky, but because what I saw over the Mont Saint Michel looked exactly like the cloud formation in the clip over Moscow on 8 October 2009. 

Perhaps I’m being delusional, but I had an overwhelming knowing that those clouds, both around the moon and over the Mont Saint Michel, were filled to the brim with spiritual energy.

Is it a coincidence when I was looking for other images of similar natural phenomenon that I came across these photos? 

Or that I read that moon halos seem to be particularly common in Hawaii (also on a Leyline)? Or that yesterday was 3/3/12 (1+2 equalling 3) although perhaps numerologists will tell me differently and that it was actually 3/3/2012 so the third three doesn’t work. A halo and the Trinity on the same day?

Is it a coincidence that a blind friend in the UK posted a link to a video on Facebook as he is becoming increasingly aware of ‘sounds’ coming from the sky?  There are plenty more like it from around the world on YouTube, albeit some are shown as being hoaxes. The videos are a couple of months old, but I think the fact that he keeps hearing a sound not unlike ‘singing’ is significant.  Possible explanations are given here Strange sounds in the sky around the world.  I for one would not be surprised if it is linked to significant changes in the earth’s magnetic field. I did my first chakra sound meditation Chakra tuning yesterday morning and was struck by the similarity of the sounds.  Mankind imitating the sounds of creation? Mother earth in her own ascension?

Is it a coincidence that sky watchers say there has been another solar flare in the past couple of days, with more anticipated? http://www.spaceweather.com/

Whatever the reasons behind these strange natural phenomenons, whatever physical sensations that many of us whole feel energy are experiencing and whatever uncertain times may lie ahead, I am certain of one thing. That what is good, and pure and right will prevail and the world will ultimately be a better place for it.

Community

For me these past few weeks have been all about community and letting go.  I am starting to have a much clearer idea about what I want to be doing with my life, but it is nevertheless an enormous leap of faith to move away from a business I have created and nurtured myself and which I have been working on for many years.  There have been days when I’ve wobbled and thought it is insane, particularly when it comes to putting bread on the table for my family. Nevertheless I am compelled by the notion that I want to heal, need to heal even, I want to write and, more importantly I want to be involved somehow as a catalyst for positive change on our planet. To make a difference in some small way.  I have been spending less time in unfulfilling activities and relationships and instead have walked the legs of my poor dog, sung my head off and laughed a lot.  I seem to be attracting many new people into my life who are experiencing the same energies as me, who understand the fantastic changes in my life.

I went to my first Reiki share, which was a wonderful experience.  It was really good to chat with others and to see how they instinctively they worked.  I found it very liberating and it gave me the reassurance to trust my own intuition during a treatment. My fabulous, fabulous Reiki master also firmly put all my worries about taking on other people’s energies to bed, explaining that whilst I might be aware of their energy I was under absolutely no obligation to take it on myself and that I should not be afraid.  It has been a great relief to be able to notice other people’s energies, but to make the distinction between what is theirs and what is mine.  This simple strategy has been very simple to put in place and has had an immediate effect.

Every day I acquire and chat with new friends all across the globe who are having similar experiences. People whose lives seem to be have been turned into turmoil and who are also abandoning everything and going with the flow rather than fighting against what seems inevitable. In a constant quest to learn more I chat to people on Facebook, surround myself with likeminded people who inspire me on Twitter, have dived into #spiritchat discussions, I’ve joined a fantastic Cosmic Circle through whom I’ve learned some great new meditation techniques, and have registered as a volunteer for a distant healing network.  I’m convinced that social networking is all part of God’s strategy to tease out a new collective consciousness, an improved way of interacting and of taking responsibility for the future of our planet. 

I have experienced dreams and meditations the like of which I have never known before in my life, dreams I couldn’t even start to describe as the right words don’t exist, dreams in glorious technicolour with full-on wrap-around sound.  For the past while the same idea keeps cropping up, and I know I’m going to have to explore it in more detail.  To start with it was just a gentle prompt to imagine my world as it might look without all the things that make life difficult, sad, gloomy or which are just plain wrong. What a delicious way to spend half an hour as you’re waking up in the morning or drifting off to sleep at night.  Then, regularly and more pointedly, the question keeps popping into my head, over and over, ‘What if the law of attraction is not just about manifesting things on an egotistical basis? What if the intention from the outset was for the law of attraction to be used by a collective consciousness, a community of souls, to make this planet a better place, to manifest the change required to heal the very many things that are wrong at the moment?’ 

And therein lies the rub, because those of you who know me will also know that up to this point in time I haven’t had the greatest results in manifesting things. Probably because the things I’ve tried to bring into my life have been for selfish reasons.  I guess I have some learning to do.  We may all have some learning to do.