How have things altered so profoundly for me? I used to feel
my body as a solid object, dense, almost unwieldy and I considered my thoughts
and emotions to be exactly that; my thoughts and emotions, they made up my
version of myself. How radically
things have changed. For the first
time, probably in my life, I feel truly alive, vibrant. I have a completely new concept of what is
‘normal’. Physically I feel energy
coursing through my body at every moment.
I don’t just understand the concept of us as energetic beings, I know
it as completely true, I feel it. When
I sense an emotion I can feel it in my physicality, like the inner guidance
system it was intended to be but nothing more.
When I feel joy I feel it powerfully, not only emotionally, but I feel
it in a specific place in my body. When
my emotions are heightened for some reason, if something worries, irritates,
angers or saddens me for example I can track the energy as it flows and moves
through my body and on out of my energy field again. If it doesn’t keep on moving on through but starts to feel dense
I am mentally able to shift it along and give it a nudge along its way. The energy in my body flows all the
time, it moves, it shifts, it changes.
I feel the kundalini energy starting in my lower back and snaking
its way up my spine and radiating outwards.
My feet pulse with a vital energy and grounded is no longer just a word
to describe someone sensible, I am truly connected to the earth. I feel solar flares long before they impact
on earth. I don’t have to check out the
space weather websites to know there has been a flare, my crown chakra pulls
tight and my teeth, lips and tongue vibrate.
I don’t have to work hard or concentrate to feel any of this, it just is.
Because my energy field is clear for much of the time when I
do feel an emotion it is much easier to pick up on it. My inner guidance system is honed and
alert. That niggling, unsettled feeling
I used to get when something wasn’t quite right now jumps up and shouts at me,
the message is loud and clear, and I am able to ask the right questions and to
respond appropriately. I am in constant
dialogue with my Higher Self, not just a prayer at the end of the day, but a
perpetual dialogue and interaction. I’m
connected. If I’m not sure of something I just ask and in a very short space of
time the answers make themselves obvious. I am guided.
I hear a wide range of higher frequencies that I have never
heard before. They are not intrusive,
but they are there all the time although I only really notice when I listen or
if it’s quiet, in much the same way as you wouldn’t usually notice the gentle
whirring of a kitchen fridge.
I understand how linked we all are. More than that, I feel it. I can sense the thoughts and emotions of
other people, sometimes I pick them up and carry them, and for a short time I
believe them to be my own. I can
literally feel the pain of other people.
If someone is suffering I often feel a sensation in the corresponding
part of my own body, powerful enough to catch my attention but as if the pain
is on mute, or as if the volume has been turned down. When doing healing work, I often feel the pain leaving their
body. Now I’m more in touch with my energy body I am better able to manage
these sensations and it is usually easy to quickly distinguish and unravel what
is ‘mine’, if there is such a thing, and send it on its way. I totally get the immense power of
words and thoughts. Not only are they are things in their own right but
when coupled with intention they are a beautiful tool for manifestation. Consequently I am careful about what I think
and say and my effect on others and the environment around me. I feel compassion and sometimes frustration
for those who have not awoken to these wonderful gifts. I am human, I am imperfect and I certainly
don’t always get it right, but I try to
remain mindful and in spirit.
Not only do I feel this energy but I see it, I see it
everywhere. I see light and colour when
I am doing healing work, I can see the Prana in the sky, I see the aura around
a group of trees almost as if I am watching them breathing, I see the energy
imprint near to a solid object, I see the gentle exchange of energy waves,
frequencies, back and forth around a flame, a light bulb, a stream of light
through the window, the setting sun.
Sometimes I see the molecules of solid objects shift and move, like the
dots that form the picture on a television screen. From time to time I see fleeting geometric shapes. A couple of weeks ago I was at a large
gathering of thousands of people and was sat quietly having my early morning
cup of coffee whilst the world slept and the sun came up. It was around the time of a huge solar
flare. I was mesmerised as I watched cloud upon cloud of beautiful, soft golden
light rolling in and flooding the show ground, with hundreds of golden orbs
dancing in front of it like sentinels leading the way. It was a stunning energy
that felt as if it was cleansing and purifying everything in its wake and I
feel blessed and privileged that I am now able to witness such things.
Day after day I see spectacular healings, everything from
the minor bumps and scrapes that we pick up along our journey through life, to
significant, life-threatening illnesses that I would previously have considered
to be irreversible.
I feel empowered, deeply connected, protective, in touch, aware, in awe. Reiki
triggered something in me that has awakened and released a blocked flow of
energy, but I know, above all else, that this is our natural state of being,
this is how we were created and intended to live our lives.
My question is simple and profound. Why are
so many of us so numb to this? What has been keeping us so dense and
disempowered?
